Thursday, June 28, 2012

I'm not sure

There's are time where
I'm not sure what I want

Time where I'm not sure
What should I do

Time where I'm not sure
How should I tell

Time where I'm not sure
Where should I go

Time where I'm not sure
Who is the one

In these year of 2012;
My life have went into a
life fill with Uncertainty.

Lots of changes
Came into my life

From:
-Relationship

-Attitude

-Behaviors

-Belief

-Social life

Things have been completely different
From who I am from the past

It's a point of life where
I'm not sure things are
Right or Wrong

-Relationship
I turned single for quite sometime now
Yet I have not decide to walk into it
Again; it's a way to protect myself
And even the people I care
It's all because I knew I'm just
Never good enough to
Deserve any lady for who I am
I'm a sinner that full with sins
Although my sins had been paid
But I still feel I'm unworthy
Regardless how much I try

I admit there are few lovely ladies
In my circle. But I'm really worry
That I could hurt another heart.
There is one that actually made me
Felt new and fresh as new
But is she the one that I really wanted?
Till now I never said a single word
To her; Timing wasn't very appropriate
As well. Though I know I would lose
Her if I never confessed; it just
Remind of another past of mine
For never confessing.
My life is fill with regret and resentment
In relationship
I had loved one so deeply in my life,
I had loved one so much and so long,
I had loved one that I should but
I never be with before;

I had lost one without a single words been said,
I had lost one due to present another party and left with lots of
Unanswered questions
I had lost one that avoided me for
Such a long time and make one's
Life dwell in myst

Am I really ready to move on to the next one?

One that we had met in such short time
One that we would be apart in 2 different places
One that we get to know each other in such a time of life

Are you the one for me?
Am I the one for you?

I'm not sure
What should I do

I'm not sure
How should I tell you

I'm not sure
Where our life will end

Together?
Apart?
Missing?
Or just another by-passer?




Sunday, June 10, 2012

Obviously

Sometime we ought to do thing too obvious don't we?