我一生中放不了的东西

在我一生中最放不下的人和东四还是你和你的东西

他们一直陪在我身边，代表了你的存在。

我说我能把你放开但是我知道，在我深深的心里

你依然是存在。

我不能停着想起你。

你的拥抱，你的吻，你的味道，你的微笑

永远都会留在我心里。

因为到了最后，我最爱的人依然是你。

你我说过，然你爱的人幸福才叫做爱

说的蛮简单，但是做得时是很痛苦

我放开你是应为你说

那么样才能然你找回你自己

我能把你人放开但是我不能把我对你的爱放开

应为，我依然是很很很很很爱你

希望你能开心就好了

如果你要看见

如果你知道

如果你没忘

我的心还是属于你的

永远都会是你的

就然我一个人

受苦

等待

希望

我们的爱情的破碎

的结合

我会专心把我的力量放在

学业

工作

家人

也会一直等待你的回来到我身边

我不会放弃我们的爱情

应为是我一生人对你的承诺

每个人说 “为么要为了一棵树放弃整个森林”

但是给我来说

某某在一个那么庞大的森林里，

有哪一棵树能然我一直爱住呢？

我不想很不想把你放开

但是我没办法把你留住

我唯一的骄傲就是我们的五年来的感情

过了数多波折，依然还是在一起

我就不相信老天爷

不会爱护一个有心人的等待

你放弃了我

我也不会放弃你

虽然爱情没可能能一人保住

但是只有等待希望的明天

总有一天，你会回到我身边

就当是我笨，笨到没人有

我也想笨下去

还是傻下去

我也不会放弃

嘴说放弃

眼说放弃

但是在深深的心里的角落

依然是在等待希望的明天

应为我不想没了你！！

New Starting Point of my Life

After been struggling to hold on to you for several days,

I finally learn to let go

My mom told me that


"God is very smart in planning
probably u were too timid and control by her all this while
so let u hv a small rejection so u will stand stronger for future
she doesnt value ur heart
then make her regret she hurt you and rejecte your love
let ur future wife has the best love she can ever get
Make urself success in life and career
make ppl surrounding u admire you and cherish you

If she so inconsiderate to give you so much burden while you are already alone in oversea
that only show how much she doesn't love you
If a girl that love you, not only will support you yet wouldn't give you so much thing to trouble

I know you are sad, cry it all loud, talk to a friend, talk a walk to Gold Coast theme park or walk around Brisbane City. Don't do any work for the meantime. Take a break and move on"

After hearing this from my mom (which is also her birthday today),

I walked out to the balcony to sit

I cried out loud, shedding a lot of tears

The sky suddenly rain

The sound hidden my voice of sorrow

The rain droplets accompany my tears
It's a blessing from GOD

Is a scenery he wanted me to see that i have to stand strong and let past be past

Rain continues as i shed my tear.

Then slowly my heart isn't pain anymore
I don't feel a thing
as if the wind blows away all the unwanted feeling i had

Finally i was able to buckled up myself
Just like i wrap up the tissue that wipe off my tears
and threw it off to indicate a new beginning of my life

My sacrifices for this love just flow away with the tears
Eye will never lies
Neither my mouth will
Because i live with honesty and dignity that i never do anything wrong this relationship

Only you love your friends and yourself more then you love me!

You shouldn't deserve me since 4 years ago!!

 I shall never shed another drop of tears for you, it because tears have been repeatedly dropping beneath my heart ever since you neglected me for your friends

You ought to said was my wrong
neither i will argue with that

But the truth only GOD will know
GOD will know what you did to me

If there's GOD in this world,
He will know what he plan and he knew what you did

This envelopes you gave me when i left Malaysia,

If you ever remember what you wrote in the photos

This envelope will be sealed forever like my love for you

I never doubt my loyalty to you

My love for you was true

The only heart been changing was YOURS!

You should knew you lied to me about all of it!

You never kept your word and promises to me

I will never regret what i did today

Great Friends in My Life (UCSI)

In my life, indeed i know quite a number of friends
From bypass friend to Great friends

Today it just suddenly came into my nerve that i would like to tell some of you how great are you guys in my life! Without any of you, I'm not what i am today.

I would not have such a memorable and exciting life in UCSI!
Never doubt that, I might or might not be successful in my life but im very sure that without any single of you, I would not live up to my life like now!!

Friends to me used to be a very simple term

Friend - people that you used them for my own benefits and vice versta

but from the very moments i know u guys, It doesn't meant that at all
I can see pure heart of sharing and appreciation among you guys

I been through a lot of great moment and times with you guys no matter how close to how long to how short
Every single moment was a GREAT! 


Let's start one by one
I was planning to draw a family tree but kinda hard ><"

Among the closest friends,
I would really call Brother and Sisters would be
1) Nikolai Wong Fu Shun
2) David Chung Tze Yang
3) Christine Chua Wen Yee
4) Cyrus Akbari
5) Mandeepal Singh
6) Fong Ching Hong
7) Khong Mei Li
8) Soh Wai Tuck
9) Akindayo Ak-Banks

P.S : Don't matter the order guys! No matter how i put it there's still an descending order ><"

There's are other good friends too besides this brothers and sister
1) Nyo Chu Ying
2) Lee Chun Hsien
3) Tan Aik Sheng
4) Beh Joh Sheng
5) Looi Han Jo
6) Bobby Ping
7) Tan Cheng Kiat
8) Steve Lau
9) Tan Chon Peng
10) Nicole Yee Kar Yen
11) Dwayne Hee
And there are many many more especially EVERYONE in UCSI's April 2009 Bsc Applied Sciences!!





Well below are some of the great times we are together

Toward my life ahead of these year, all of you have been by my side.

even though time together wasn't long but the moments together was memorable

Time flies, people surrounding me always changing but there's always some of those people

have not change.

Those are Great Friends!!

Whenever there's time I need someone to listen to me and my thought and feeling be heard

You guys Never failed to be that person. Even how harsh things went through, we tend to hold each others together walk through it..

I know I'm such a perfectionist person that wish most of the things goes by my way my thought my direction

I may not be a very perfect friend but there's time i really care and take into consideration for you.

No matter how things happen between us, i will never give up this friendship

I would try to give you the best solution (which i presume)

Whether it work out for you or myself, 

I felt each of you went through it perfectly the way i wanted

Tracking back time, Things was much more easier having every one of you there!

Whenever i face trouble, you guys will be always the first one to lend me a hand or shoulder for me to shed my tear and sorrow.

No matter how i camourflage myself, you guys will never failed to see through it.

Life here wasnt really easy without you guys

You are all my best partner and friends

No matter how have u contribute in my growing process

You will always have a place in my heart and mind

The smile in your face, and my face

The sorrow in yours and mine

The happiness we shared

The successes where accomplished

The time we spent together

The every little things we did for each others

The ups and downs we went through

Every moments didn't comes easy like a snap of finger

We each contributed for all these little things

Great things happened when we combined every single little things

There's time we would thinking of giving up on each others but at the end we never able to do so

Because we know without you or me, there's never WE

We are always ONE!!

Everyone of you just as important to me as my everything

You are part of my life

Without you, There's Never Me~

It's not easy to find friends like you

and it might be easy to lost a friend like you,

if i don appreciate you well

I hope to let every one of you know that

I really Appreciate every one of you deep in my heart

Whether are we still close or distant or even never talked ever since some incident

You guys still have your part in my heart

I really hope we could get back together like Old times

when everyone able to sit around and having our talks and meetings

whether would it be official stuff, or personal matter

I felt I have no appreciated the time i had with you till i really apart from you

I have never had much pictures with you

So please,

Please promise me, I wanna have more solid memories of you

Let's get together again and take some good great and fun pictures together

I wanna show everyone that in my life

I have Great Peoples like you guys that always by my side

Im Very Proud having you in my life

I'm proud of myself that i really care for you even now

Frankly telling you guys

I miss you deeply in my heart

whenever I'm Lonely and Alone, i tends to hope everyone of you will be my side

P.S : When writing this blog, I cried all the way through it, because i really miss you guys very much!!

I Miss The great time together

I miss the laughter we had together

I miss the craziness we did

I miss every SINGLE things we have together!!

Please Promise Me, that we will always be together till one day you feel I'm not worth you to be called as Friend!

The Virgo-an Birthday 18.09.11

This year birthday wasnt as fun and exciting as one year ago
Looking back pictures from last years
Things was great, friends are a lot
Simple yet fun
Here are some of them

They are all the GREAT people i know from UCSI! Thought not everyone were there but the closest one is always there for me!

Seriously

I miss you guys like crazy!

Been thinking back the old time when everyone were together enjoying life like there's never tomorrow

It was really great!

Now everyone is in different part of the world

Bonding are getting loosen

One of my birthday wishes is

Back in time where you guys were there with me!

Everyone there were a very important part of my journey in life!

You guys meant alot to me no matter how are we now.

I definately will come back to find u every single of you!!

Back to my birthday celebration back in Brisbane!

The morning i woke up, my blackberry i flooded with lots of comment and notification from FB
Just over the hours
I had another 30 comments when i woke up

Well, the first thing i been doing on my birthday
Is replying all the wishes i got from Facebook from everyone of you
I would like to again

Thanks you to whom that sent me wishes and those that remembered my big day right in the heart!!




One thing i left out
This morning i woke up, feeling very dizzy and head is feeling heavy indeed
Balloon and Nicole was preparing brunch
It's was fried noodle

While im having the meal i feel unease and feeling drowsy all the way
Wasnt really a very good condition for a celebration

On the first few hours of my day,
I took medication of panadol (Active Fast)

My good housemate (Chun Hsien, Nicole and Balloon), they are planning for an outing in South Bank for dinner and movie! We invited Dwayne to tag along as well

Let me show u what we did that day

We travelled to South Bank by Moggil Bus 444.

We went to check out for movie showtime
at South Bank Cinema Times

Cinema Ticketing Counter

Each movie ticket cost $5.50 on student card

And we decided to watch Johnny English by Rowan Atkinson a.k.a Mr Bean

We brought the movie ticket for 7.30pm

Movie Tickets (without seat number)

It's how the cinema here does, there isnt any seat number unlike in Malaysia

and if you are late to the cinema even if you purchase your ticket very early, u still get some lousy seating 

haha

Beverage Machine

If you are a Malaysian, Im sure you heard bout 7-11 Slurpee, this is something like that

just that it have different varieties of flavour and colour as you could see, a lot of people buying this drink and some even took their time to make layers of colour and on the side it some candy shelf 

Food Counter (Popcorn)

After getting the movie ticket, We went looking for our Dinner

and it's just beside the cinema, there this restaurant name Ginga (Japanese Cuisine)

Ginga Menu

The main reason that attracted Balloon and Chun Hsien to entered this restaurant is because of these :

Detective Conan Movie!! LOL!

Initially i was craving for some steak for birthday but Japanese cuisine would do as well

However, in the Menu i found this korean dish , Salmon Bimbimbap

and i ordered it as my birthday dinner meal. Isnt it looking pretty brilliant? 

It actually taste awesome as well

 Salmon Bimbimbap

And right in front of our table there this bar counter which look pretty nice

 Ginga Bar Counter

 Our Family Photo! Everyone had their dinner and had some pretty great talk too

Partly of the time they were talking bout the movie, Detective Conan! LOL!

Great family i had here!

After the dinner we went for the movie, We went there at 7pm, and there's alot of people already in the Q waiting for the movie to start, waited till 7.30 finally we can get in

and i bought some popcorn and drink to share with them as well

The popcorn here is coated with caramel. rather is coated with some cheese powder and salt

therefore, it is salty rather then sweet :D but taste nice as well :p

This how the cinema look like, 

To me it seem to be like a theatre hall, huge actually

but crampy seating ><"

 Cinema Screen

After that, we just back home back to our usual life, and im busy replying comments

and i have a total of 250comments! That's a lot to reply but is all the great wishes from everyone

Fantastic! 

and On 19th September Night,

My seniors, Sin Ying, Jerry, Wei Lin

they made me this birthday muffin cake for my birthday!

They are really awesome people that i know!

Thanks you very much!

It's pretty much my birthday cake for this year

Simple yet delicious!

Every little things that everyone did on my big day, i remember it right in my heart! Thanks you everyone!

Thanks alot!

Each of everyone of you made my day as great as it should with great people like you!