I can't stop myself from thinking of you, checking you out..
Although you have limited me at all possible way to cant see any of your updates
All i want is to know how are you doing.
I don't know how have i become annoying
Why Should I keep dreaming of you?
I cant control what im dreaming
I don't know how could i stop it
Every night in my dream, I will be dreaming of you
Waking up at a random hours of the night
Woke up and shed tears.
Why Should I remain so silly?
I wish i can stand up stronger
No longer so weak and depress
Why should i care for someone whom hurt me?
I have no idea
Why should i care so much about honesty?
Because i believe life should be live with honestly and no lies
When you don't lie to someone people will not lie to you
But the truth is, the more you being honest, people deem to treat you
as you are lying even you are truly honest.
Why should i be so loyal?
Because i felt loyalty always is the key for a successful relationship
but apparently it's not the only key.
I been living a life full of idealism and honesty
But this isn't life
Life is about surviving through every obstacles with all means
Why should i keep running?
I been running through my life chasing for the best
Trying to be the Best of all
Trying my best to be the Top
Top in study, Top in relationship and top in everything
but never realise how stupid is these
Why should i be such a miserable Virgo?
Being a typical Virgo seem to kill my life off..
Virgo tense to hurt people feeling without realizing it
Well i probably said thing too straight forward without filtering
But every word and things i said because it's the truth and it helped even though it might hurt
Why should i being so straight forward?
Because i felt that everything should come in a sync that nothing should be hide
Why do people dislike being straight forward? All you just needed to do is answer the question straight to the point
Why do you wanna ask back a question? Why could you answer it straight forward
i felt that being straight forward is not to drag thing too long or far..
Is it wrong being straight forward?
Do people love to turn a big circle to answer a certain something?
Why should i remain so depressed?
Well who can i seek my happiness from?
Friends? Where are they?
Family? I dunno how to express myself
Maybe im just turning the corner of the cliff
Why should i still be in such condition?
I wish someone could put back a laughter on my face..
I wish i could stop thinking bout things
I wish i could become more cheerful
I wish i could know more friends
I wish someone would tell me what's my problem is
Please stop praising me that I'm very smart, very capable, very nice and this and that
Do you know how i felt when you guys telling me that?
I never wanted to be so extreme good
I wish im more social-able more friend
more listener more good buddies
I realize that friend around me
come and go
when I'm worth some value
friend come by
When I'm no longer worth anything
I'm like a bypasser or a stranger
When I'm alone, where have you guys been?
I wish there's like true friend ever existed
Someone that would scold me when im like a crap
someone that would listen to me when im sad
Someone that would let me be myself
Someone that could let me cry in front of w/o any fear of shame
Someone that could smile and laugh with me like there's no tomorrow
Someone that could allow me to hug on and hang on whenever im down
Someone that wouldn't praise me like I'm a talented person
This person once existed in my life but went off again
And when could this someone ever come back again
Year 2011 is the Year i experience the most painful year of my 22nd
I have lost 2 of the most important people in my life
and lost it completely
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