Reflection of 2013

Looking upon the days flow by in year 2013

To what I remembered, year 2013 didn't started as great as it should have been

many thing was filled with uncertainty, sorrow of the past, injuries that yet to be mend

Fear upon what lies in the past, and what ups ahead

Looking back at whom I was back then,

One whom care so much on the people whom have gone by

Wonder of the return of peoples whom no longer care

Longing to things that yet no longer belong

Striving for a new beginning, a journey to start the pace

Pondering upon the days which I have sat at the edge of my desperation

that one day, I could let down the past that dragged me long long ago

In Year 2013,

-A year which I learnt to let go of things and peoples whom no longer belong

start to see thing in wider prospects then just solely people I longing to be with

-Year which I left Australia and return to Malaysia

-Graduated from University of Queensland

-Pondering of future path

-Started my career footstep in BP Healthcare Group

-Ended the years with great colleague in company

Regardless what have been the past,

memories start to fade gradually and slowly fading,

hatred become dull and blurry

the longing of returns have no longer there

Though my life have not been brighter than previous

nor my social circle have been growing any larger but become smaller

I appreciate the people whom come and goes,

those whom let me realise how naive I was, though I still hold on to those principles

I believe one day, my persistent will reign in the way I desire

Never to deny, the facts that, people whom encircled me,

they came for a reason, left for another reason

Perhaps, that how my social circle became,

People come and goes, bring various memories and encounter to newer discovery and knowledge

Through these encounters, most are sad memories that disheartening whilst least are enlightening memories

The biggest lesson I have learnt this year,

Learning to Let Go of the past

Seem simple to some, but difficult for someone like me

Letting Go is much more difficult than how it's spoken

Many once told me, to let go of this or that

however, what I have been doing is "Holding On"

Holding on in a "not-a-good-way" to people or things have no longer put any concern

whether am I holding on or letting go

Stubbornness of such been a real torture and pain in year 2012, have brought forward to 2013

however as time passes, the grip that was once firm and steady, become loose and wavy

I guess during that time, my grip have been laid on to another prospect of my life

which is my occupation/jobs

I finally found back the passion to work back as a team leader as I was back then

finishing study (degree) have made me lose the Fire/ Passion for striving forward

Getting back into a busy and occupied job which I'm in,

have occupied most of my time in my work

From terrified of syringe and needles

to holding a syringe to perform venipuncture to customers

From blood phobia

to handling blood samples on daily routine

From zero interest in my job

to passionate indulge in my work and even starting to expanding further

Yet as imperfect of who I am,

I learn along the way,

Gratitude always to those whom are around to assist and guide

A team leader is never better without the people in the team

I'm never once proud to be the shepherd but glad to those that standby together to follow my lead

In a working premises, I'm glad to have my team mates around,

to support,

to enriched one another,

to be the pillar of our branch

I'm never capable to do any of such great extend without the availability of talents my colleagues have to utilized to its limit

During such hectic workload, gradually made me grew to a higher leaps of my life

From minimal capability, to extended capability.

From a staff without any experience, to one whom leading a whole team of staff

Life fill with ups and downs

but be gratitude to those whom comes and goes

every seeds of memories that planted in each and every moment of your life

sprout into a bud that bloom one day

Life might be tough as it seen at its moment,

however looking back later on,

it wasn't that tough after all

As long there's desire to move forward,

no one can stop

is a matter of choice and determination

Past memories have been kept behind,

Present memories have been through

Knowledge and attitude have been built

Determination have been prevail

That the glory of His to be reviewed

May Year 2014 be another exciting year

whether how tough the storms to comes,

My resolution remain the same

Be Still during the Storm

For Whom knows what's ahead

Nothing is too heavy to bear

only One will is too weak to breach

Stand firm and still for what lies ahead is greater

than what lies in front

Let the past remain in the past

let memories be kept as "memories"

a lesson, a course, a foundation

for future upcomings

Keep be renewed with new challenges to come

New encounters to be fought

New Height to be leaps

New Memories to be kept

Looking back is not that bad after all

For what lies in the past,

what meant for what coming up ahead