For every single person whose birthday is about to reach,
I'm sure most people would be excited how would they have fun , party, chillax, and go crazy with friends
However, this year my feeling for it was stressful and await for a particular someone
Before,
Days before,
My friends were discussing,
Would "she" wish you during your birthday as she did to us?
Well, i know deep down my heart; She wouldn't do so and I really anticipate for it
***However, she never wished or spoken to me on my birthday anyway***
-Apparently i was stressful back then and worry if it would come. I even told brothers and sisters around me
that i wouldn't wish my birthday ever come as I know i might be hurt.
on 17.09.2012,
I keep wishing that my birthday wouldn't be a hard one to go through.
People around me keep telling me,
"It's past.
You care too much about someone who doesn't care about you
Why do you have to carry so much burden in your back and caring for those that never value it."
"You been a very caring person for everyone around you although you might just care and concern in silent sometime, however the heart of yours have been felt by lots of people. And the people that you brought forth here and been impacted have foreseen the caring heart of yours"
"But past odd to keep it in the past, time will make it possible for reconciliation with those that have left. It will come to present one day or another. It's time to re-anew. Let go the past and move on forth"
I eventually still haven't been able to do so. But when time comes closer to the night,
Friends from places around started wishing beforehand,
Initially, my heart was still blunt and stress.
But when thing keep coming,
Blessing and wishes keep showering from above
It just made things so much easy.
I ended up speaking to friend that have not been in contact for ages
Keep in touch with one another.. Been chatting for a long time
I'm actually never alone.
It was myself that have been self-confining and being too stubborn on the past.
18.09.2012
It was midnight 0000 , was still talking with some friend
A particular friend i would really want to thank for is Ashley;
Although we ain't particular close but she always just so "good-timing" in checking me out
-never failed to lift up my stress and upset. Always been a very good and wonderful friend
to be able to know about my feeling, just like a snap away.
She said something really cute yet touching that actually filled my feeling a lot
"She didn't wish you then never mind, I would wish you twice "Happy Birthday" so you still receive the same amount of wishes even without her"
Really thankful for her encouragement and even stood firm and being such a cheerful person. t
Such a blessing!!!
----She started my birthday with a very encouragement words and make my heart started to accept blessing and wishes from others and make myself joyous and appreciate of my present and people around----
*****Around 4am, my Facebook been flooded with almost 100 wishes and blessing*****
Thanks you for all the blessing and wishes that rain/showered down my Facebook wall.. I actually reply them till i fall asleep.. Aiks
The afternoon, I woke up and attend Campus Lunch! theme was "Happy Hats"
Have a very good afternoon lunch with bunch of awesome people and able to rejoice with everyone there.
Although i didn't really tell it was my birthday but eventually it was really awesome.
Played some interesting ice-breaking games and everyone was happy and I was very happy and enjoying myself..
It ended at 2pm. Then my mind was thinking..
"Gosh, my day is ending and going to head home and rot "
****My day didnt ended just like that****
I bump into 2 of Lunch's friend , Josephine and Terrence
We ended up for a tea in the Albert St, Brisbane City at Tea Center.
Have an awesome tea session and the tea and environment was pleasant and unique.
-Great time !!
Along the way back,
I met Adonia at Myers Center.
A friend from QUT.
Went do some grocery shopping and catching with her for almost an hour in the mall.
Was interesting to always know more about a friend
****Honestly during that time, my phone keep prompting with Facebook notification of birthday wishes****
-Such a blessing that my days never stop being HAPPENING and Showering with Joy and Happiness
By time I'm Back home is almost 630
and leave again after 30min for meeting with some good brother and sisters
Spend some quality time with them fellowship and get to know more about life and gospel.
Interestingly time fly and it's already 930.
-Reach home I'm nearly exhausted. however I was shocked by my housemate and friend
They came into my room with a birthday cake and with few lovely ladies along..
Seriously i tell you, I'm so shy that i start to blush and was very happy to see all of them here
Just For Me..
Even though, things happening in their life was tiring and exhausting but still they make it up for my birthday
Everyone was really great!!
I'm so joyous and blessed...
And been talking to another friend back in KL for couples of hours.
An accountable and friendly friend whom is a lawyer .. Awesome yo!
****Facebook Notification never stopped prompting ****
~*.'*~*.'*~*.'* I realized one thing, I was never alone all these while. I'm surround with lots of wonder of the world and even with lots of great people and friend across the nation. Why would i be sorrow and frowning over someone that doesn't even have a forgiving and caring heart upon me? Isn't it very stupid when i start thinking back the time i wasted just to stress about that particular someone and made every single one around me to go through such hard time to convince my heart to raise up ~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~
I know it's long but this how my story went
FINALLY!
I would like to Thanks every single one of you whom really took the time to even dropping my Facebook to wish and shed a blessing upon my day. whether do i really know some of them or whether how much I have been not keeping in touch with them ; I'm humbly apologize for my NoN-Sensitivity upon all the Friends that i have seldom keeping in touch and even some for many years.
I would also thanks my family for being such an encouraging family to keep me there all the time. and even Spiritually Family, Brothers and Sisters across the Nation whom been really supportive and encouraging. Indeed without any of you, i might not learn and cross this journey of my life and become a iconic person whom exhibit so much discomfort and discouragement at certain point of life. But your unfailing love and concern have always been in my heart. Thanks you Very Much
For every friend from past and presence; You guys made such a great blessing to me. Even a simple word of "Happy Birthday" i felt it was a great blessing for me. As i never really know how to appreciate blessing but on 18.09.2012, i learn to appreciate it so much and it filled me so so much!!
Thanks you for the blessing that comes from every corner of the nation and world. And i Honestly Felt all of your blessing deep down my heart.
*Although till the end, the one i anticipated never came but its no longer important, It's PAST*
~*.'*~*.'*~*. ~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*THANKS YOU ~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*
~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*~*.'*FOR MAKING MY DAY~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*
~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'* SUCH A MEANINGFUL ONE~*.'*~*.'*~~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*~*.'*
Signed off
with a
Thankful and
Gratitude Heart
Jason Yap (Jayz)
19.9.2012
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Love All that make a change in your life
Appreciate what is there for you
Care for people regardless those that hurt or love you
Accept the Past, Proceed the Future
Letting Go is Tough, But it a Journey of Life
Past Shape who you are Today
Today and Future is a Choice of Own
Learn to LOVE
LOVE is the greatest grace given upon Mankind
Learn to love others as you have been loved
Love is a conduct
Love is a tolerance
Love is Caring
Love is Commitment
Love is Patience
Love is Humbleness
So Love with an open heart
Love the righteous one
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