True Relationship

True relationship

What's true relationship to you is?

Crossing hand all the time

Hugging each other all the time

or even Kissing each other?

It actually not

A true relationship is actually very simple and it only needed just few aspect

(i) Honesty

(ii) Loyalty

(iii) Trust

(iv) Love

Isn't it sound pretty easy?

But how many of you able to have all of these element?

(i) Honesty

-able to tell your partner everything without trying to camourflage or hide

-able to speak out everything without any intention to lie

-being straight forward in every conversation

-no lies, fraud or prank in relationship

Do you think is easy? I bet not much of you can do it

But i have been doing it ever since i know you

(ii) Loyalty

-loving one without any hesitation

-loving one without any intention to fall for another person

-never drift off to another new relationship

-always loving your partner as tomorrow is the Final Destination in life

(iii) Trust

-trusting your partner with everything she said

-build in trust to believe there's no fishy or hanky panky behind

-believing in the future up ahead

Trust is a bit difficult to achieve if Honesty and Loyalty is missing

(iv) Love

-this is easy to said but hard to do as it's not a general form

-love with purity and loyalty

-love come with care and concern

-love isnt just a word, it an action of love

-Love with guts love with pride

-Loving you with my everything

A true relationship is when you can tell each other

ANYTHING and EVERYTHING

(every single thing which u think is unnecessary but it meant everything to your partner, as nothing is every UNNECESSARY in relationship, why would you NOT telling? Would you rather causes misunderstanding and fight only it's time to be truthful?)

Think about it 

NO LIES AND NO SECRETS

Life there's always ups and downs

When things are down under,

It's just telling us to support each other to climb back up

Not giving up and let it fall even down under...


No matter how, when things are worst..

I'll be the one whom stand at the bottom most to give you the push back to top even by all

mean it will make me fall even under till into the soil..

Waiting

Have you guys felt before the pain and suffering when waiting for someone you love?

I can tell you, the feeling is very painful because you see the clock ticking every second, every minute every hours to reach the time you expecting to see that particular someone

That feel is seriously torturing..

People says

Happy moment, times fly

Sad Moment, times doesnt even move

When you waiting for that particular person and you cant find her

you are not allowed to contact her

you are not allowed to ring her

you are not allowed to sms her

Even if you did contact, ring or sms her

Your replies was never been replied

Your replies took several hours to get ONE single reply

and that particular SINGLE reply is short and basically have no meaning in it

Your replies is completely ignored

During that moment of waiting,

You do not know what happening around her

You do not know whether is she alright

You do not know if things are good

You do not know who is around her

You do not know how to make her talk to you

You do not know how to NOT pissed her off

While she was

Enjoying her time

Taking all the possible sweet moment

Having lots of fun

Having chit chat like chatterbox

Having meals

Whilst you are

Waiting for the time to pass

Neglected your daily routine

Missing out meals

Isolating yourself from others

Sitting or lying down doing nothing

Restless waiting

Even if you tried to distract or indulge yourself and concentration on

Work

Entertainment

Leisure

Pleasure

Food

But those doesnt last long as your heart will fly back to the restless waiting time

People that never waited

You will never understand how painful it is

Saying is easy like asking you to

Rest/ Take a break

Study

Revise

Entertainment

Well it really depends on how important that person to you

Imagine you are waiting your lover, a person whom you are

Eagerly to talk to

Missing her

Thinking of her

A lot things to share

A lot question to ask

A lot of thing wanted to know about her

and many more

That feeling is a slow process torturing and pain

No matter how you tried to find her, she just doesnt reply you or contact you

I really wonder

Is the person whom waiting is a BLOODY IDIOT or just another Great Lover?

The person whom be waited?

Do you know how people felt?

Have you try put yourself in people shoe to think for others?

Imagine you are in such situation

Unless probably because you just have no feeling of wanting to

Meet him

See him

Miss him

Talk to him

Love him

Care for him

Of course you feel there's no problem at all to all these

Sometime i really wonder..

Should people whom been always waiting for another actually learnt to put that person down

and let it go

Since that other person whom be waited doesnt appreciate nor understand the pain you going through

yet enjoying all the possible fun she could have

Will you ever START to UNDERSTAND how WAITING FELT like?

Try figure it out or try it out..

And you will know making people whom longing to see and meet you for such a LONG PERIOD of time

is a real SUFFERING!!

Please feel thankful if there's people whom willing to do so

Try to ease their pain by even just giving them regular reply

Unless you particularly hated that person a lot

Sometime is just felt like

Questions and Doubt of my Decision

Recently in the past 2-3 weeks,

My life undergo some major changes that more or less changes me

Things wasnt really going fine within myself

for unable to accept what had happened

Been thinking and worrying for days and nights

that i have lost myself within my own thought

Questions and Doubt been running to my mind every now and then

every second, every minutes, every hours and every days for weeks

It's still happening

Being unable to rest well

having lots of nightmare and terrify about the past

Practically im lost

several major changes happened

I grown up in some aspect that i could face thing in a better manner

but on the other hand i still have myself that being too worried about a lot related issue

Maybe this is how a typical Virgo

Seek for perfection,

Seek for truth

Prepared for future

Look far beyond

Think of all possible possibility

Reaching far for answer

For me, i would really wanna know crystal clear truth on what had happened

I have a lot question to myself to ask and to know

I been asking a lot thinking a lot and doubting a lot

even question myself did i did the right thing to bring you back

im uncertain about my answer

the uncertaincy that make things worse for myself

every night only able to sleep for few hours and awake from nightmares

Well probably im still able to handle well,

As i do not wanna disappoint my family that put a lot of effort and time

to send me oversea to study

Academically i hope to performed well

In term of my own life,

Im trying to survive

Life is about survival

Im not sure whether how should i keep asking about it and my doubt and questions

are unanswered..

a lot of doubt question and uncertaincy

asking myself how can i stop thinking

i tried hard not to think

but some scenario and incident happen around me

remind of it

It's hard to removed when lovely thing happen in front of me doesnt reflect us

but that incident

There's a saying "People cry not because they are weak; it because they have been strong for too long"

I do believe that saying is right

because all the while

I been trying to be strong to protect you in the shadows

doing a lots of thing to ensure you are safe

apparently nothing much have been known

neither i would want it to be known

But you couldnt felt it

Have you ever think of me when u say good bye?

Have you ever think of me when you went off to him?

Was i unworthy for you that time?

I have no idea

Sometime i would rather you shout at me with your true heart then you kept it within urself

We do have something in common

We tends to keep think in our heart

But i really hope you wouldnt do that again

Remember you once said

"Foresee the future of us, we gonna kiss we gonna hold each other dearly..."

This sentence meant a lot to me..

Im hoping to see you soon

and would really love to sit down and have a one to one talk with you

without any disturbance

such as Facebook, MSN, friends, Homeworks, studies or anything

Hope for the world with only two of us

Do you know,

How many time we actually went out with only 2 of us?

It wasnt much

Your friends were always there most the time

and your concentration wasn't on me

You might not know how to see facial expression or psychology of me

but it isnt hard to read and understand me

I'm a simple guy with simple desire

I wanted is a pure and true relationship

filled with honesty, truthful and love and  loyalty

Simple yet difficult to achieve..

I always been honest , truthful and loyal to you for 5years

Without a strong love, it not even possible to achieve

I'm still upset regarding the incident happen

it's really a very deep cut thorn that embedded and sealed within my heart and mind

is hard to imagine what had happened during that time

and the every single thing you had did

i have a lot of questions and doubt

Im been asking myself

what have i did wrong?

why should it be like that?

why hvnt you listen to me?

why you lied to me?

i cant answer it

neither you could...

I blame myself for being a lousy bf

I hope we could

Love like couple

Kiss like couple

Hug like couple

but

Talk like Best friends

Simple? yet it's still difficult...

Nothing come easy

lets bygone be gone?

saying is easy, doing isnt easy at all

99 Simple Fact of Guy (In Bold = Me)

HERE'S 99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

( A GUY WHO IS SERIOUSLY IN LOVE AND NOT JUST AN INFACTUATION )

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. 

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up. I Have grown up a lot from this..

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys. (I love it when you smell as you are)

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.


Citated from Facebook

挂心

心情算是平复起来了
可是还是很担心你
你看起来好像坚强起来可是
我觉得你还是以前的你
你的弱点就是心软
我很怕再次失去你

不是我不相信你
就是你的好心和心软
然你太容易相信人

好想一直陪你在身边保护你
你想跑，我明白
可是我不能看着你跌到也然你去
人终是要倒了才会学会站起来

可是，不是每一跌倒都能爬起来
有时候，倒了就一生了

对不起，是我的错
如果不是我，
你也不会跑出去
不跑出去，你就不会受伤了
错的是我
可是现在看见你被过去牵住你不放
我也不能帮上忙
我真的很没用。。。。
无奈的我
只能关心你，担心你，和提醒你
希望你真的能听听我说的话

心软的你
真的让我很无奈
不懂能怎么把你弄醒呢？

以前的事，我不想去想
可是，有他一天，我心不安
很想帮你搞定它

心里很乱
我该怎么办？

你明白我烦么吗？

很想回到你身边～
我不会再然你受伤了
永远都会保护你，
爱护你
疼你

期待我们的将来
是美好的哦？
对吗？

Message in the bottle

The message in the bottle that calm the heart

Message goes

"He's no longer present in our world. 

See ahead is our future.

We gonna hold each other dearly

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Trust me

ILY

Thanks you for the promising word

I trust you

Will see ahead in our future

既有我陪你到老

在我生命中，爱我的人有很多，被我爱的人是很少

除了家人，外人只有你

你是我一生中爱的人

你能说我还没看好世界里的女人

还是说森林里有数多的树

可是在森林里

有多少的树是我看中的呢？

我很想你知道

我累了

真的是心累，身体累和脑也累了

这五年来

我们经过的破裂

风波

摇动

也不少

而是很多很多

我走到很累了

我很想停下来

我不是想离开你

只是不想再过那么了的生活

我是很想很想停下来

不想每天担心你

不想每天怕你会离开我

不想每天怕你被人骗还是认识错的人

我很想保护你

不是应为你弱

是应为我爱你

不爱不担心

也不是我不相信你

我相信你是真的爱我的

可怕

我不能再陪你跑下去了

我真的累了

心里绞碎

我很想稳定下来

我懂你不想停下来

年青活泼很爱跑

不爱稳定下来

可是我累了

我想有个家

有个老婆

有个开心的家

我是有想过才问你

愿不愿意嫁给我

我不是想绑住你

真的不是

我不是和你说过

好几天了

我睡不好

每一个下时

到起来

记得吗？

那几晚

我在想

我还能和你跑在那么多风坡，海浪和摇动下吗

每晚

我都在哭

哭是应为

我在没力气去追你了

五年来

说长不长，说短也不短

可是经历的每个事情也不简单

可能给你没么

可是给我

是很大事

想在平衡线

不想再跌下来了

也不想要爬上去

我想和你结婚是应为

我真的爱你

不是应为我懒得跑

度过了上的破裂

我真的是很累很累

我不是冲动

不是要绑你

而是我真的是想好了

我想和你在一起到老

为么叫老婆?

应为

既有我陪你到老

才会有老婆老公

你永远也会是他最不舍得的女人

人终是要学会放下。
我想开了。
我们已经低到了终点。
你不爱我没关系
既要你记得，我们曾经有过一个难忘的感情
希望你能找到你的幸福
你的快乐

我会默默的爱着你

应为爱所以才放手
然你找你的幸福

希望我们再见面还是朋友

你痛过，哭过，伤害过，
是时候，然你开心得过你喜爱的生活

如果有一天，你想起我的话
就想起当年的我们
人应该是过得开开心心
而不是悲哀与愤怒

虽然我还会想起你
但是我再不会扯住你了

想再看见你的笑容
但我知道，我再也不会看见你对我的微笑

就让我为我们的过去而后悔
你没错，错在我缺乏安全感

好想再听见你的快乐的声音

希望你能找到跟爱你的人

我不 要求多

我可能不是最好的朋友
但是我希望我们还能做朋友
你说我没好好的听过你说心事
就让我作为你的耳朵
好好在认识你多一次

当是给我多一次的了解你
做个好朋友

有缘的话，才谈将来～

P.S :
        请给我多一点时间来学会完全放下你。谢谢你一直爱护了我五年。
我不会忘记我们的过去，而是放在心里做回忆。
请你记住，你曾经有一位男生和你经历过一段很难忘的爱情故事。
那位男士也会爱你爱到永远。你永远也会是他最不舍得的女人。

慢长的路，远长的痛

今天过得很辛苦。不懂的为么，心里一直都在想你。

真的那么难放下吗？

我知道你不想我找你

但是我心里就是一直想找你

现在我只能一个人默默的想你而不能找你

我真的在努力的不去想

我很不想去想你应为想你只有我一人。

你过得快乐吗？

你过的幸福吗？

真的是我的离开能给你快乐吗？

明明就是你还爱我

但是为么你要骗你自己？

我搞不懂

是不是你有苦衷吗？

不能坦白告诉我吗？

我心很烦。心里很空

为了不想我一直去想，我就在学校里走走

但是还是不能过放下

我不是要去想但是，是自然性 会想起你

希望我能过到今天不找你

时间过得非常慢长
同时在心里痛的越来越痛

我以为我能放下你昨晚

当我一大早起身后，眼睛打开时

心就乱了

那种痛苦是说不去来的痛苦

感觉就像心再哭。

慢长的六个小时已经过去了

但是还是在忍耐

我能度今天不找你吗？

过得今天能过到明天吗？

回家时，天突然下起了雨

但我在淋雨中慢步回家

我发现每当我心里再哭时

老天爷，一定会把天下场雨来安慰我的心

那时我发现，我爱上了下雨天

在那场雨，好像心里就被雨水在淋着

呼气时，心里凉凉的

每个人都在跑去散雨儿我就在雨中慢步

很想一直呆在雨中里哭。
应为当雨水滴在脸上和再哭时是一样的
没人看见我的辛苦
没人看见我的悲哀
没人明白我的心情
痛得要快撑不住了

对你们来说
雨过就天晴
而我
雨过了多少场雨水，心里也不会清醒过来

是我笨吗？
还是是我放不下？
还是我从来多没醒过？

我很想回到过去
还是去一个没感情的世界
很想把心拿去来

有时在想，疯了的人也过得蛮开心的吗
至少每天都在过，自己喜欢的世界里

我现在和疯子没么差别，只是我还能撑着别让自己疯去

没要你的时间过得

很很很很慢长好像一天之内不及二十四小时
而是七十二小时。
时间过得很慢很慢