Monday, December 26, 2011

其实我。。。。

其实我真的好想你,但是你永远都不会理解我。

我没有很想你
我只是在早上醒来的时候,看看手机,有没有你发来的信息,有没有你的未接来电。

我没有很想你
我只是在上网的时候,首先关注你的空间,看看你最近是不是有更新

我没有很想你
我只是在聊天的时候,翻阅你发给我的短信,看着你的照片,回忆一下那些美好时光

我没有很想你
我只是饿了会想你饿么,冷了想你会冷么..

我没有很想你
我只是走在大街上看到男男女女,好希望那一对对里有我们..

我没有很想你
我只是把你的来电调成唯一的铃音,放在我身边,并时不时的看看是否自动关机,是否信号良好 ..

我没有很想你
我只是在吃小吃的时候,想如果你能和我一起吃,那该是多幸福的事 ..

我没有很想你
我只是在听歌的时候,偶尔会被某句歌词击中,脑中出现短暂的空白..

我没有很想你
我只是想看看你的样子,听听你的声音 ..

我没有很想你
我只是在别人无意提起你的时候,愣在那里,不知答话..

我没有很想你
我只是在睡前紧握着手机,等待着你的情话,等待着你说晚安..

我没有很想你
我只是睡不着的时候想想你,但是,我不知道我是因为睡不着而想你,还是因为想你而睡不着..

我没有很想你
我只是在每次醒来的时候,第一个想到你 .

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Why Should I?

Why Should I keep caring for you?
I can't stop myself from thinking of you, checking you out..
Although you have limited me at all possible way to cant see any of your updates
All i want is to know how are you doing.
I don't know how have i become annoying

Why Should I keep dreaming of you?
I cant control what im dreaming
I don't know how could i stop it
Every night in my dream, I will be dreaming of you
Waking up at a random hours of the night
Woke up and shed tears.

Why Should I remain so silly?
I wish i can stand up stronger
No longer so weak and depress

Why should i care for someone whom hurt me?
I have no idea

Why should i care so much about honesty?
Because i believe life should be live with honestly and no lies
When you don't lie to someone people will not lie to you
But the truth is, the more you being honest, people deem to treat you
as you are lying even you are truly honest.

Why should i be so loyal?
Because i felt loyalty always is the key for a successful relationship
but apparently it's not the only key.
I been living a life full of idealism and honesty
But this isn't life
Life is about surviving through every obstacles with all means

Why should i keep running?
I been running through my life chasing for the best
Trying to be the Best of all
Trying my best to be the Top
Top in study, Top in relationship and top in everything
but never realise how stupid is these

Why should i be such a miserable Virgo?
Being a typical Virgo seem to kill my life off..
Virgo tense to hurt people feeling without realizing it
Well i probably said thing too straight forward without filtering 
But every word and things i said because it's the truth and it helped even though it might hurt

Why should i being so straight forward?
Because i felt that everything should come in a sync that nothing should be hide
Why do people dislike being straight forward? All you just needed to do is answer the question straight to the point
Why do you wanna ask back a question? Why could you answer it straight forward
i felt that being straight forward is not to drag thing too long or far..
Is it wrong being straight forward?
Do people love to turn a big circle to answer a certain something?

Why should i remain so depressed?
Well who can i seek my happiness from? 
Friends? Where are they?
Family? I dunno how to express myself
Maybe im just turning the corner of the cliff

Why should i still be in such condition?
I wish someone could put back a laughter on my face..
I wish i could stop thinking bout things
I wish i could become more cheerful
I wish i could know more friends
I wish someone would tell me what's my problem is
Please stop praising me that I'm very smart, very capable, very nice and this and that
Do you know how i felt when you guys telling me that?

I never wanted to be so extreme good
I wish im more social-able more friend
more listener more good buddies

I realize that friend around me
come and go
when I'm worth some value
friend come by
When I'm no longer worth anything
I'm like a bypasser or a stranger

When I'm alone, where have you guys been?
I wish there's like true friend ever existed
Someone that would scold me when im like a crap
someone that would listen to me when im sad
Someone that would let me be myself 
Someone that could let me cry in front of w/o any fear of shame
Someone that could smile and laugh with me like there's no tomorrow
Someone that could allow me to hug on and hang on whenever im down
Someone that wouldn't praise me like I'm a talented person

This person once existed in my life but went off again
And when could this someone ever come back again

Year 2011 is the Year i experience the most painful year of my 22nd
I have lost 2 of the most important people in my life
and lost it completely

Friday, December 16, 2011

18th September Baby (Very True bout me)



‎9月18日 充满神秘感
宫位:处女座24o-26o
处女座三
变动的土象
9月18日出生的人非常重视隐私,常给人一种[神秘客]的感觉,但不知为什么,他们总是从事与群众有密切关系的工作。他们拥有很隐密的个人世界,使得外人不是那么容易进入;此外,他们或许会依赖他人,但并不会永远依赖。由于富有决断与出其不意的行事风格,他们很可能会即赢得关上友谊与爱情的大门。因此,除非与他们交往的人都有心理准备,知道他们随时有变心的一天,否则跟他们交往会是件很危险的事。

出生于这一天的人很有功成名就的本事,但是他们也很可能被一再的失败与厄运给缠住。在他们的一生中,美丽是最大的主题。另外,他们对于各种形式的纷争、暴力与激烈的竞争极为敏感,对于这些纷扰,他们只希望能躲得越远越好。事实上,9月18日出生的人不善于处理过多的压力,尽管他们拥有显眼与吸引人的外貌,上天却不一定也赋予他们同样程度的自信心。

然而,当9月18日出生的人面对复杂的问题时,却能应付得很好,这是因为他们很喜欢将事情理出个头绪来。也很希望能了解事情的真相,为了让他们可以一个人单独探索内心的奥秘。爱思考、深思熟虑与深沉是他们的特质,也因此,他们看待生命的态度非常严肃,甚至过于严肃了。

不管是在个人成长的历程、艺术上的表达,或是社会关系的一种互动,大多数出生于9月18日的人都和某种信仰或崇拜有着特别的关系。由于他们具有专心致志特质,非常适合从事研究工作,以及过着一种不受干扰与潜心忘我的生活形态。可是长久处于这种孤绝独立的生活,很可能会产生情绪失控的问题,但在另一方面,也可能会为他们带来一种神秘的感觉,这种神秘感会使得他们更加引人着迷与好奇。想与他们交往的人必须异清楚,何时可以走近他们,何时又必须离开他们。要和9月18日出生的人建立持久的关系,成功机率端赖是否能敏锐地把握住这种绝妙、毫不牵绊的相处时机。

9月18日出生的人经常会有远行的机会,不管是身体的或是心灵的。他们也比较不愿意仪在过去,一般而言,他们会听任过去的一切随风消逝,不会重新开启一段已经结束的议题或失败的人际关系。

幸运数字和守护星
9月18日出生的人会受到数字9(1+8=9)与火星的影响,当火星和水星(处女座的主宰行星)的影响力联合在一起时,会赋予人敏捷的心智,却不太有交际手腕,甚至可以说是笨拙。9月18日出生的人必须控制自己的脾气,不要无理地拒绝他人,如果他们能驾驭信这种情绪上的冲动,以及善用火星与水星的正面特质便能获致良好的结果。数字9会使出生于这一天的人很强的求生能力。

健康
9月18日出生的人很容易罹患慢性病,它的起因有时候是一桩严重的意外或手术。他们比较脆弱的地带包括腹腔、生殖器官、肾脏与肾上腺。当9月18日出生的人的健康出了问题时,他们会很快地适应这种情况,并且变得相当节制与清心寡欲,喳他们最好是以一种更为积极有交往的方式去对抗病魔,而不只是消极地接受与配合。对于食物和性爱的欲望,不应该成为紧张时的纾解或发泄试,不论是禁欲或纵欲,过与不及都不好。当身心失调时,9月18日出生的人特别会做出自我毁灭的举动,因此建议他们遇到这种情形时,或许可以从针灸、脊椎批量压治疗法与瑜珈当中得到一些帮助。

建议
学着更加不屈不挠,有时冲突是在所难免的。试着了解自己的身体在跟你说些什么,不要忽略了身体所产生的徵状。神秘的特质有时会挡住外面亮丽的阳光,开朗一点吧。

名 人
葛丽泰嘉宝(Greta Garbo)瑞典裔美籍电影女明星与偶像,成名之后即隐居于纽约住所,“我不想被打扰”她就。她以爱用宽边帽著名,夙有“神秘女郎”之称,曾和罗伯泰勒主演电影版《茶花女》。

美国电影、电视两栖演员布莱克(Robert Blake),作品有《贝雷塔》(Barretta)。

美国舞蹈家与百老汇编舞者德米勒(Agnes DeMille),他的编舞不论是芭蕾或百老汇歌剧,大多取材自美国民间流传的故事。

诺贝尔物理学奖得主麦克米伦(Edwin McMillan),利用粒子回旋加速器发现希原素。

英国摄影师与电影导演卡迪夫(Jack Cardiff),特色是构图美妙、格调不俗,作品有《儿子与情人》,曾获奥斯卡金像最佳摄影金像奖。

加拿大总理迪芬贝克(John Diefenbaker),在他的努力下使当政的自由党政府沦为少数党,并创下先后13次代表故乡进入国会的纪录。

塔罗牌

大秘仪塔罗牌的第18张是“月亮”,主要代表梦境、情感和潜意识的世界。传统上月亮的形象是女性的力量和情感的化身。因此,牌面正立时,代表敏感、体谅与感同身受;牌面倒立则表示情感上的顺从、被动和缺乏自我。

静思语

宇宙中的每一件事物都是活生生的。

优点
深思熟虑、认真、有审美观。

缺点
封闭、困扰、消极。



Citated From :
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=334726653208352&set=a.331053863575631.101586.277313692282982&type=1&ref=nf

Friday, November 18, 2011

如果当时的我会做到这7个东西;


如果当时的我会做到这7个东西;

1.如果你的女朋友在你面前哭了,无论什么原因,请抱紧她,再反抗也要抱紧,趴在桌子上永远没有在你怀里安心;

2.如果你的女朋友指出了你的不是,请不要总是嫌她唠叨,若不是因为在乎她不会说你;

3.如果你的女朋友和你赌气不理你,不要也学她,这正是考验你们的时候,“脸皮厚”的精神此时不发扬又更待何时;

4.如果你的女朋友不听你的话,转身走了,一定要追上她,若真的还爱着,丢下她一个人你又如何放心呢;

5.如果你的女朋友说“你走吧,我不想理你了”,千万不要相信,女人最是口是心非,其实那是她最需要你的时候;

6.如果你的女朋友生气了,说心情不好不想吃饭,千万不要问她想干吗想吃什么,她一定说什么都不要,买好你记忆里她最爱吃的东西(最好是有包装的,这样等她心情好了再吃也不会冷),但一定不要以自己也不吃来威胁她;

7.如果你的女朋友对你们说狠话,请保持三秒钟不说话,然后搂过她的肩,笑笑说:“老婆,你讲话的声音真可爱!”

珍惜你们的女朋友,不要把她们想的坏想的复杂,女人要的永远最简单!

她忙碌的时候不一定就是充实,或许只是因为寂寞,所以,如果你爱上她,就不要怕打扰她;

她跟你吵架时不一定就是真有事,而是想撒娇没找对途径,错误的以为这样你就会注意到她;

吵完架不要给她时间冷静,实际上她一点也不需要冷静,她需要你跟她说话哄哄她;

她想哭时先不要问原因,而是在任何时候任何状态下,都先给她一个肩膀让她有依靠;

她不知道该怎么办时就喜欢说分手,多半都是在以退为进,尽管常常让自己没有了下台阶;

她整天跟你唠叨个没完时,是因为她还在爱你愿意与你分享,女人不爱的方式,才是沉默;

她成了“黄脸婆”的原因常是因为沮丧,而这种沮丧一定和你的爱有关,所以,也就能够改变;

她梦想一些不切合实际的浪漫时,不要粗暴地打断她,如果连梦想也枯萎的女人更可怕;

大多数时候她都是动态的,你也千万别总是静态,相处时你们更需要互动,哪怕是争执不休;

女人都是水做的,所以情愿热着她也别冷着她,不然一过了零度她就会结成了冰,最终冻着你;

她有时候需要听一些谎言,比如要你说什么你就说什么,在你不脸红的情况下说到她脸红;

她烦闷的时候最不喜欢一个人待着,这时候她是不会嫌你烦的,你越跟她缠绵她心里就越好受;

当她吃醋的时候可不是好玩的,最有效的办法还是让她无醋可吃,要不在醋缸里淹死的可是你;

女人的眼泪并不都是珍珠,但你一定每次都把它们当成珍珠,这样她才会变得连哭都很吝啬;

她说得话你可以适当忽略,但在她需要你的时刻请陪在她身边,这常常可以让她回味一辈子;

女人都是感性的,所以常会做出一些你认为弱智的事情,也正因为如此,她才需要你的提醒与呵护;

不是所有的女人做了母亲后都会长大和变得坚强,所以,正确教育孩子的重任常常是在你的肩膀上;

她骂你的时候是因为爱你,她打你的时候也是因为爱你,这一点上和男人的表现刚好完全相反;

温柔的女人也会有脾气,坚强的女人也会有脆弱,独立的女人也会有固执,你选择了她就请承担她!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

True Relationship

True relationship

What's true relationship to you is?

Crossing hand all the time
Hugging each other all the time
or even Kissing each other?

It actually not

A true relationship is actually very simple and it only needed just few aspect

(i) Honesty
(ii) Loyalty
(iii) Trust
(iv) Love

Isn't it sound pretty easy?
But how many of you able to have all of these element?

(i) Honesty
-able to tell your partner everything without trying to camourflage or hide
-able to speak out everything without any intention to lie
-being straight forward in every conversation
-no lies, fraud or prank in relationship

Do you think is easy? I bet not much of you can do it
But i have been doing it ever since i know you

(ii) Loyalty
-loving one without any hesitation
-loving one without any intention to fall for another person
-never drift off to another new relationship
-always loving your partner as tomorrow is the Final Destination in life

(iii) Trust
-trusting your partner with everything she said
-build in trust to believe there's no fishy or hanky panky behind
-believing in the future up ahead

Trust is a bit difficult to achieve if Honesty and Loyalty is missing

(iv) Love
-this is easy to said but hard to do as it's not a general form
-love with purity and loyalty
-love come with care and concern
-love isnt just a word, it an action of love
-Love with guts love with pride
-Loving you with my everything



A true relationship is when you can tell each other
ANYTHING and EVERYTHING
(every single thing which u think is unnecessary but it meant everything to your partner, as nothing is every UNNECESSARY in relationship, why would you NOT telling? Would you rather causes misunderstanding and fight only it's time to be truthful?)

Think about it 

NO LIES AND NO SECRETS




Life there's always ups and downs

When things are down under,


It's just telling us to support each other to climb back up


Not giving up and let it fall even down under...



No matter how, when things are worst..


I'll be the one whom stand at the bottom most to give you the push back to top even by all


mean it will make me fall even under till into the soil..




Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Waiting

Have you guys felt before the pain and suffering when waiting for someone you love?

I can tell you, the feeling is very painful because you see the clock ticking every second, every minute every hours to reach the time you expecting to see that particular someone

That feel is seriously torturing..

People says
Happy moment, times fly
Sad Moment, times doesnt even move

When you waiting for that particular person and you cant find her
you are not allowed to contact her
you are not allowed to ring her
you are not allowed to sms her

Even if you did contact, ring or sms her
Your replies was never been replied
Your replies took several hours to get ONE single reply
and that particular SINGLE reply is short and basically have no meaning in it
Your replies is completely ignored

During that moment of waiting,
You do not know what happening around her
You do not know whether is she alright
You do not know if things are good
You do not know who is around her
You do not know how to make her talk to you
You do not know how to NOT pissed her off

While she was
Enjoying her time
Taking all the possible sweet moment
Having lots of fun
Having chit chat like chatterbox
Having meals

Whilst you are
Waiting for the time to pass
Neglected your daily routine
Missing out meals
Isolating yourself from others
Sitting or lying down doing nothing
Restless waiting

Even if you tried to distract or indulge yourself and concentration on
Work
Entertainment
Leisure
Pleasure
Food

But those doesnt last long as your heart will fly back to the restless waiting time

People that never waited
You will never understand how painful it is

Saying is easy like asking you to
Rest/ Take a break
Study
Revise
Entertainment

Well it really depends on how important that person to you

Imagine you are waiting your lover, a person whom you are
Eagerly to talk to
Missing her
Thinking of her
A lot things to share
A lot question to ask
A lot of thing wanted to know about her
and many more

That feeling is a slow process torturing and pain
No matter how you tried to find her, she just doesnt reply you or contact you

I really wonder
Is the person whom waiting is a BLOODY IDIOT or just another Great Lover?
The person whom be waited?
Do you know how people felt?
Have you try put yourself in people shoe to think for others?
Imagine you are in such situation

Unless probably because you just have no feeling of wanting to
Meet him
See him
Miss him
Talk to him
Love him
Care for him

Of course you feel there's no problem at all to all these

Sometime i really wonder..

Should people whom been always waiting for another actually learnt to put that person down
and let it go
Since that other person whom be waited doesnt appreciate nor understand the pain you going through
yet enjoying all the possible fun she could have

Will you ever START to UNDERSTAND how WAITING FELT like?

Try figure it out or try it out..
And you will know making people whom longing to see and meet you for such a LONG PERIOD of time
is a real SUFFERING!!

Please feel thankful if there's people whom willing to do so
Try to ease their pain by even just giving them regular reply

Unless you particularly hated that person a lot

Sometime is just felt like

Monday, October 17, 2011

Questions and Doubt of my Decision

Recently in the past 2-3 weeks,
My life undergo some major changes that more or less changes me

Things wasnt really going fine within myself
for unable to accept what had happened
Been thinking and worrying for days and nights
that i have lost myself within my own thought

Questions and Doubt been running to my mind every now and then
every second, every minutes, every hours and every days for weeks
It's still happening

Being unable to rest well
having lots of nightmare and terrify about the past
Practically im lost

several major changes happened
I grown up in some aspect that i could face thing in a better manner
but on the other hand i still have myself that being too worried about a lot related issue

Maybe this is how a typical Virgo
Seek for perfection,
Seek for truth
Prepared for future
Look far beyond
Think of all possible possibility
Reaching far for answer

For me, i would really wanna know crystal clear truth on what had happened

I have a lot question to myself to ask and to know
I been asking a lot thinking a lot and doubting a lot
even question myself did i did the right thing to bring you back
im uncertain about my answer

the uncertaincy that make things worse for myself
every night only able to sleep for few hours and awake from nightmares

Well probably im still able to handle well,
As i do not wanna disappoint my family that put a lot of effort and time
to send me oversea to study
Academically i hope to performed well
In term of my own life,
Im trying to survive

Life is about survival

Im not sure whether how should i keep asking about it and my doubt and questions
are unanswered..
a lot of doubt question and uncertaincy
asking myself how can i stop thinking

i tried hard not to think
but some scenario and incident happen around me
remind of it
It's hard to removed when lovely thing happen in front of me doesnt reflect us
but that incident

There's a saying "People cry not because they are weak; it because they have been strong for too long"

I do believe that saying is right
because all the while
I been trying to be strong to protect you in the shadows
doing a lots of thing to ensure you are safe
apparently nothing much have been known
neither i would want it to be known
But you couldnt felt it
Have you ever think of me when u say good bye?
Have you ever think of me when you went off to him?
Was i unworthy for you that time?

I have no idea

Sometime i would rather you shout at me with your true heart then you kept it within urself
We do have something in common
We tends to keep think in our heart

But i really hope you wouldnt do that again

Remember you once said
"Foresee the future of us, we gonna kiss we gonna hold each other dearly..."
This sentence meant a lot to me..

Im hoping to see you soon
and would really love to sit down and have a one to one talk with you
without any disturbance
such as Facebook, MSN, friends, Homeworks, studies or anything

Hope for the world with only two of us
Do you know,
How many time we actually went out with only 2 of us?
It wasnt much

Your friends were always there most the time
and your concentration wasn't on me

You might not know how to see facial expression or psychology of me
but it isnt hard to read and understand me

I'm a simple guy with simple desire
I wanted is a pure and true relationship
filled with honesty, truthful and love and  loyalty

Simple yet difficult to achieve..
I always been honest , truthful and loyal to you for 5years
Without a strong love, it not even possible to achieve

I'm still upset regarding the incident happen
it's really a very deep cut thorn that embedded and sealed within my heart and mind
is hard to imagine what had happened during that time
and the every single thing you had did

i have a lot of questions and doubt
Im been asking myself
what have i did wrong?
why should it be like that?
why hvnt you listen to me?
why you lied to me?

i cant answer it
neither you could...

I blame myself for being a lousy bf

I hope we could
Love like couple
Kiss like couple
Hug like couple
but
Talk like Best friends

Simple? yet it's still difficult...

Nothing come easy
lets bygone be gone?
saying is easy, doing isnt easy at all

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

99 Simple Fact of Guy (In Bold = Me)






HERE'S 99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

( A GUY WHO IS SERIOUSLY IN LOVE AND NOT JUST AN INFACTUATION )

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.


27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. 

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up. I Have grown up a lot from this..

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys. (I love it when you smell as you are)

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99.
Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.


Citated from Facebook

Monday, October 10, 2011

挂心

心情算是平复起来了
可是还是很担心你
你看起来好像坚强起来可是
我觉得你还是以前的你
你的弱点就是心软
我很怕再次失去你

不是我不相信你
就是你的好心和心软
然你太容易相信人

好想一直陪你在身边保护你
你想跑,我明白
可是我不能看着你跌到也然你去
人终是要倒了才会学会站起来

可是,不是每一跌倒都能爬起来
有时候,倒了就一生了

对不起,是我的错
如果不是我,
你也不会跑出去
不跑出去,你就不会受伤了
错的是我
可是现在看见你被过去牵住你不放
我也不能帮上忙
我真的很没用。。。。
无奈的我
只能关心你,担心你,和提醒你
希望你真的能听听我说的话

心软的你
真的让我很无奈
不懂能怎么把你弄醒呢?

以前的事,我不想去想
可是,有他一天,我心不安
很想帮你搞定它

心里很乱
我该怎么办?

你明白我烦么吗?

很想回到你身边~
我不会再然你受伤了
永远都会保护你,
爱护你
疼你

期待我们的将来
是美好的哦?
对吗?


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Message in the bottle

The message in the bottle that calm the heart
Message goes

"He's no longer present in our world. 
See ahead is our future.
We gonna hold each other dearly
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Trust me
ILY




Thanks you for the promising word
I trust you
Will see ahead in our future

Saturday, October 8, 2011

既有我陪你到老


在我生命中,爱我的人有很多,被我爱的人是很少
除了家人,外人只有你
你是我一生中爱的人
你能说我还没看好世界里的女人
还是说森林里有数多的树
可是在森林里
有多少的树是我看中的呢?
我很想你知道
我累了
真的是心累,身体累和脑也累了

这五年来
我们经过的破裂
风波
摇动
也不少
而是很多很多
我走到很累了
我很想停下来
我不是想离开你
只是不想再过那么了的生活
我是很想很想停下来
不想每天担心你
不想每天怕你会离开我
不想每天怕你被人骗还是认识错的人
我很想保护你
不是应为你弱
是应为我爱你
不爱不担心
也不是我不相信你

我相信你是真的爱我的
可怕
我不能再陪你跑下去了
我真的累了
心里绞碎

我很想稳定下来
我懂你不想停下来
年青活泼很爱跑
不爱稳定下来
可是我累了
我想有个家
有个老婆
有个开心的家
我是有想过才问你
愿不愿意嫁给我
我不是想绑住你
真的不是
我不是和你说过
好几天了
我睡不好
每一个下时
到起来
记得吗?
那几晚
我在想
我还能和你跑在那么多风坡,海浪和摇动下吗
每晚
我都在哭
哭是应为
我在没力气去追你了
五年来
说长不长,说短也不短
可是经历的每个事情也不简单
可能给你没么
可是给我
是很大事
想在平衡线
不想再跌下来了
也不想要爬上去
我想和你结婚是应为
我真的爱你
不是应为我懒得跑
度过了上的破裂
我真的是很累很累
我不是冲动
不是要绑你
而是我真的是想好了
我想和你在一起到老
为么叫老婆?
应为
既有我陪你到老
才会有老婆老公










Sunday, October 2, 2011

你永远也会是他最不舍得的女人

人终是要学会放下。
我想开了。
我们已经低到了终点。
你不爱我没关系
既要你记得,我们曾经有过一个难忘的感情
希望你能找到你的幸福
你的快乐

我会默默的爱着你

应为爱所以才放手
然你找你的幸福

希望我们再见面还是朋友

你痛过,哭过,伤害过,
是时候,然你开心得过你喜爱的生活

如果有一天,你想起我的话
就想起当年的我们
人应该是过得开开心心
而不是悲哀与愤怒

虽然我还会想起你
但是我再不会扯住你了

想再看见你的笑容
但我知道,我再也不会看见你对我的微笑

就让我为我们的过去而后悔
你没错,错在我缺乏安全感

好想再听见你的快乐的声音

希望你能找到跟爱你的人

我不 要求多

我可能不是最好的朋友
但是我希望我们还能做朋友
你说我没好好的听过你说心事
就让我作为你的耳朵
好好在认识你多一次

当是给我多一次的了解你
做个好朋友

有缘的话,才谈将来~

P.S :
        请给我多一点时间来学会完全放下你。谢谢你一直爱护了我五年。
我不会忘记我们的过去,而是放在心里做回忆。
请你记住,你曾经有一位男生和你经历过一段很难忘的爱情故事。
那位男士也会爱你爱到永远。你永远也会是他最不舍得的女人。

慢长的路,远长的痛

今天过得很辛苦。不懂的为么,心里一直都在想你。
真的那么难放下吗?
我知道你不想我找你
但是我心里就是一直想找你
现在我只能一个人默默的想你而不能找你
我真的在努力的不去想
我很不想去想你应为想你只有我一人。
你过得快乐吗?
你过的幸福吗?
真的是我的离开能给你快乐吗?
明明就是你还爱我
但是为么你要骗你自己?
我搞不懂
是不是你有苦衷吗?
不能坦白告诉我吗?

我心很烦。心里很空
为了不想我一直去想,我就在学校里走走
但是还是不能过放下

我不是要去想但是,是自然性 会想起你

希望我能过到今天不找你

时间过得非常慢长
同时在心里痛的越来越痛

我以为我能放下你昨晚
当我一大早起身后,眼睛打开时
心就乱了

那种痛苦是说不去来的痛苦
感觉就像心再哭。

慢长的六个小时已经过去了
但是还是在忍耐

我能度今天不找你吗?
过得今天能过到明天吗?

回家时,天突然下起了雨
但我在淋雨中慢步回家
我发现每当我心里再哭时
老天爷,一定会把天下场雨来安慰我的心
那时我发现,我爱上了下雨天
在那场雨,好像心里就被雨水在淋着
呼气时,心里凉凉的
每个人都在跑去散雨儿我就在雨中慢步

很想一直呆在雨中里哭。
应为当雨水滴在脸上和再哭时是一样的
没人看见我的辛苦
没人看见我的悲哀
没人明白我的心情
痛得要快撑不住了

对你们来说
雨过就天晴
而我
雨过了多少场雨水,心里也不会清醒过来

是我笨吗?
还是是我放不下?
还是我从来多没醒过?

我很想回到过去
还是去一个没感情的世界
很想把心拿去来

有时在想,疯了的人也过得蛮开心的吗
至少每天都在过,自己喜欢的世界里

我现在和疯子没么差别,只是我还能撑着别让自己疯去

没要你的时间过得

很很很很慢长好像一天之内不及二十四小时
而是七十二小时。
时间过得很慢很慢




Friday, September 30, 2011

30th September 2011

Is another day ending the Month Of September
Supposingly to be a month which I'm most happy of
but things just doesnt get on the right track

Anyway

A friend of mine, name E
Awaken me from my pitiful life
Though i still couldn't let go but well things will work out fine
Wounds doesnt heal fast.

E gave me some Korean lesson
Not sure will E keep on teaching me anot but here is what i learn in an hour time

An nyong = hi/hello (first thing to greet ppl with)
Nae = me
Yi Lem = name
En = is
ib ni da= ending of word? (not sure :p)

First constructed sentence
"An nyong, Nae Yi Lem En Jasonyap id ni da"
(Hello, My name is Jason Yap toot toot toot)
hahaha

Pam gap serp ni dah = glad to meet you

1= il
2= yi
3= sa,
4= sah
5= oh
6= yoi
7 = cil
8= pal
9 = gu
10 = sip
11 = sip il
20= yi sip

all the word sound similar to me
is like mixture of hakka hokkien and chinese in a way

Well that's all about my Korean lesson
My sensei E is missing after that ><"

Wonder will E teach me smthg new

P.S : If you ever wonder is E is a guy or a girl, make a guess
But something to make it straight, E is occupied and not available

haha

Well
Will update if anything up on 1/10/11
 when the fish is hooked on, is not ur choice to be indecisive.. since when can a fisherman determine the fish he caught, he only can determine the preference of the fish via bait

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Contented

People have a lots of aims, motive and greed in everything they possessed and never satisfied with what they have no matter in relationship, financial, social status, materials, academics and people around

Have anyone though of there always things that are greater then what u possessed?

Just like in a relationship

You always tend to complained that your partner is
not thoughtful
not caring
not good looking enough
not smart enough
not rich enough
and many more

Have you ever think about yourself?

Do you think you are the best choice your partner can have?

Out there, in this big world,

There are million of people that have better in every aspect that you have yet your partner chosen you rather then the others

Do you ever learn how to be contented on what you have and appreciate them rather then complaining about it?

Many people does not realized that what they have is good enough for themselves
Human are greed scavenger. We greed for money, We greed for Freedom, We greed for Status, We greed for every possible thing you can compete with.

But have you ever feel contented with what you have?
There's limit to everything you could achieve

There's always things greater or better then what you have
but is it obtainable? is it sustainable? is it achievable?

Ask yourself about it

I saw this photo in Facebook attracted my attention on this issue
Let's have a look



I would like to shared something with you as well
Credit to Jeremy Yap (my brother)
he sent this to me when my heart was broken

A store that sells "New Husbands" has opened in New York City
where woman may go and choose a husband.

Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates:

You may only visit this store ONLY ONCE!
There's six floors and the values of products increases as the shopper ascends the flights
The shopper may choose any item from a particular floor, or may choose to go up
to the next floor, but you CAN NOT go back down except to exit the building

So a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband

On the First floors, the sign on the doors reads
Floor 1 - "These Men Have Jobs"

She is intrigued but continued to the second floor

On Second Floors, the sign on the doors reads
Floor 2 - "These Men Have Jobs and Love Kids"

"That's nice", she thinks, "but i want more." 
So she continues upwards

Third floor sign reads
Floor 3 - "These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, and are Extremely Good Looking"

"Wow", she thinks
but feels compelled to keep going
She goes to fourth floor and the sign reads

Floor 4- " These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, Drop-dead Good Looking and Helps with Houseworks"

"Oh, Mercy Me!", she exclaims." I can hardly stand it!"
She goes on to fifth floor

The sign read
Floor 5 - "These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, are Drop-Dead Gorgeous, Help with Houseworks and Have a Strong Romantic Streak"

She is so tempted to stay but she goes to the sixth floor

The sign reads
Floor 6 - " You are visitor number 31,234,546 to this floor.
There are no men on this floor.
This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please!!
Thanks you for shopping at The Husband Store

In order to avoid gender bias charges, The owner opened a "New Wives Stores"
just across the street

The first floors sign read
Floor 1 - " These Womens Love Sex"

The 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th and 6th have never been visited.


--------------------------The End--------------------------

Rather funny story but within the story we can see that human are hard to please and contented by the things the could possessed and wanted more, regardless of gender

However, in some cases, guy are easily to please in relationship compare to girls (in my opinion)
Maybe is because I'm one of the guys that felt contented with the girlfriend i have
but doesn't meant my girlfriend felt the same

Anyway no offence!
Cheers with the last joke
Creditted to Jeremy Yap as well

Broccoli : "Im not happy with my look, I look like a tree."

Walnut : " Im no unlucky, I look like a brain."

Mushroom : " That's not too bad, I look like an umbrella."

Banana : " Can you guys please change the topics?"


P.S : Felt Im really the lonely person ><" Haiz

Have a great day ahead with

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

不想你们担心

在我最痛苦的时候
最没办法时
依然有你们

我家人
爸妈
弟妹
堂哥堂姐

我朋友
Christine
Chu Ying
Fu Shun
Nicole Teh
Chun Hsien
Balloon
and the rest


我不想然你们为我一担心
不想然你们为我一操心

我知道你们我做的切都是想让我心里好过
很多时面上的笑容还是要勉强的笑出来

我很对不起你们
应为我无法面对

心很疼,心很痛
一个人时,眼泪流得不停
鼻水也流着不停

对不起!
我真的无法无能
我很想坚强起来

但是很难
我以为我能的
我真的以为我能
但是默默在心里
还是很脆弱

我很不想面对
但是也不能不面对

我是真真的傻与笨小孩
然你们失望了

专一是我的优点
也是我的弱点


放宽心情, 面对生活


Exported directly from 
http://yingzifly.blogspot.com/2010/06/blog-post.html

Thanks you for writing this for me but thing isn't easy


傻孩子,到现在还放不下对方吗?
傻孩子,到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗?
傻孩子,有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下
傻孩子,我来给你做个试验:
你拿着一个茶杯,然后就往里面倒热水,一直倒到水溢出来。
你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗?
知道我想说什么了吗?
这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的,了,你自然就会放下。
傻孩子,
忘了吧,所有你留恋的,你回忆的,你拥有过的。
那些,都已是记忆。
缺失并不可怕,
可怕的,是无法面对
傻孩子,
你无法轻易忘记放弃,是因为你付出过。
付出了,她就会像柱子一样扎根在心。
不要刻意去逃避,刻意忘记,那只会让你更痛苦。
绕开这个柱子,寻找未来的幸福生活吧。
那里,有你的理想。
傻孩子,
开始新的习惯吧。习惯,每天一个人生活。
习惯,一个人过生日、一个人行走。
习惯,走过熟悉的路,面对熟悉的景。
你逃不掉,不掉的。
那么,就勇敢面对,现实。
现实是,一切,画上了句点。
傻孩子,
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧,
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己,
这也是你,成长中的你。
这个你,正在逐渐死去。
新的你,即将重生。你的路,你的未来。
你知道的,所有的浩劫,都是成长的祭奠。
做最好的自己,即使,一个人。
傻孩子,
好好,尽情发泄吧。
剥开自己的心,用文字、用声音、用所有能发泄的方式。
泄完了,就要振作。
看吧,你失去的,其实道。
还有那么多人关心着你,以不同的方式,
所以,你并不孤独。
正是这样的失去,让你看清现在所拥有的幸福。
傻孩子,别哭,别再哭,
不值得,真的,不值得了。
把过去尘封吧,别委屈,别不甘心,别不接受。
开始新的旅程吧,去遇见新的风景,新的际遇。
做你该做的事吧,有很多事,等待着你完成呢。

傻孩子,
生活褪去了曾有的颜色,暂时宁静
别沉沦在这片宁静里,那会毁掉你。
你要明白,虽然残忍,但这个决定,足够正确。
现在的生活,不是你想要的。
为了你的理想,你必须学会适时放弃。
给对方最好的关怀,就是,变的更好、更强大、更幸福
现在我对你很好、很好很好,你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎,你不珍惜。
当某天,你被伤害,想起我,你就会明白了。
所以,当你不想和别人去交往的时候,要对对方好一点,不要让最后的结局成为一个恨字。
即使你不喜欢对方,也不要拒绝对方的一切,因为你没有权利去把对方伤的遍体鳞伤。
不要去拿你不喜欢对方来说话,即使你不喜欢,也别去做伤害对方的行为,要知道,伤害也许会到心里面。
好好的对待对方是最好的,以后的时间是很长的,既然缘分让你们相交,记得珍惜。
送给还在坚持的人们
有时候放手了
可能你就轻松一些了
记得要让自己高兴