30th September 2011

Is another day ending the Month Of September
Supposingly to be a month which I'm most happy of
but things just doesnt get on the right track

Anyway

A friend of mine, name E
Awaken me from my pitiful life
Though i still couldn't let go but well things will work out fine
Wounds doesnt heal fast.

E gave me some Korean lesson
Not sure will E keep on teaching me anot but here is what i learn in an hour time

An nyong = hi/hello (first thing to greet ppl with)
Nae = me
Yi Lem = name
En = is
ib ni da= ending of word? (not sure :p)

First constructed sentence
"An nyong, Nae Yi Lem En Jasonyap id ni da"
(Hello, My name is Jason Yap toot toot toot)
hahaha

Pam gap serp ni dah = glad to meet you

1= il
2= yi
3= sa,
4= sah
5= oh
6= yoi
7 = cil
8= pal
9 = gu
10 = sip
11 = sip il
20= yi sip

all the word sound similar to me
is like mixture of hakka hokkien and chinese in a way

Well that's all about my Korean lesson
My sensei E is missing after that ><"

Wonder will E teach me smthg new

P.S : If you ever wonder is E is a guy or a girl, make a guess
But something to make it straight, E is occupied and not available

haha

Well
Will update if anything up on 1/10/11

 when the fish is hooked on, is not ur choice to be indecisive.. since when can a fisherman determine the fish he caught, he only can determine the preference of the fish via bait

Contented

People have a lots of aims, motive and greed in everything they possessed and never satisfied with what they have no matter in relationship, financial, social status, materials, academics and people around

Have anyone though of there always things that are greater then what u possessed?

Just like in a relationship

You always tend to complained that your partner is

not thoughtful

not caring

not good looking enough

not smart enough

not rich enough

and many more

Have you ever think about yourself?

Do you think you are the best choice your partner can have?

Out there, in this big world,

There are million of people that have better in every aspect that you have yet your partner chosen you rather then the others

Do you ever learn how to be contented on what you have and appreciate them rather then complaining about it?

Many people does not realized that what they have is good enough for themselves

Human are greed scavenger. We greed for money, We greed for Freedom, We greed for Status, We greed for every possible thing you can compete with.

But have you ever feel contented with what you have?

There's limit to everything you could achieve

There's always things greater or better then what you have

but is it obtainable? is it sustainable? is it achievable?

Ask yourself about it

I saw this photo in Facebook attracted my attention on this issue

Let's have a look

I would like to shared something with you as well

Credit to Jeremy Yap (my brother)

he sent this to me when my heart was broken

A store that sells "New Husbands" has opened in New York City

where woman may go and choose a husband.

Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates:

You may only visit this store ONLY ONCE!

There's six floors and the values of products increases as the shopper ascends the flights

The shopper may choose any item from a particular floor, or may choose to go up

to the next floor, but you CAN NOT go back down except to exit the building

So a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband

On the First floors, the sign on the doors reads

Floor 1 - "These Men Have Jobs"

She is intrigued but continued to the second floor

On Second Floors, the sign on the doors reads

Floor 2 - "These Men Have Jobs and Love Kids"

"That's nice", she thinks, "but i want more." 

So she continues upwards

Third floor sign reads

Floor 3 - "These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, and are Extremely Good Looking"

"Wow", she thinks

but feels compelled to keep going

She goes to fourth floor and the sign reads

Floor 4- " These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, Drop-dead Good Looking and Helps with Houseworks"

"Oh, Mercy Me!", she exclaims." I can hardly stand it!"

She goes on to fifth floor

The sign read

Floor 5 - "These Men Have Jobs, Love Kids, are Drop-Dead Gorgeous, Help with Houseworks and Have a Strong Romantic Streak"

She is so tempted to stay but she goes to the sixth floor

The sign reads

Floor 6 - " You are visitor number 31,234,546 to this floor.

There are no men on this floor.

This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please!!

Thanks you for shopping at The Husband Store

In order to avoid gender bias charges, The owner opened a "New Wives Stores"

just across the street

The first floors sign read

Floor 1 - " These Womens Love Sex"

The 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th and 6th have never been visited.

--------------------------The End--------------------------

Rather funny story but within the story we can see that human are hard to please and contented by the things the could possessed and wanted more, regardless of gender

However, in some cases, guy are easily to please in relationship compare to girls (in my opinion)

Maybe is because I'm one of the guys that felt contented with the girlfriend i have

but doesn't meant my girlfriend felt the same

Anyway no offence!

Cheers with the last joke

Creditted to Jeremy Yap as well

Broccoli : "Im not happy with my look, I look like a tree."

Walnut : " Im no unlucky, I look like a brain."

Mushroom : " That's not too bad, I look like an umbrella."

Banana : " Can you guys please change the topics?"

P.S : Felt Im really the lonely person ><" Haiz

Have a great day ahead with

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

不想你们担心

在我最痛苦的时候

最没办法时

依然有你们

我家人

爸妈

弟妹

堂哥堂姐

我朋友

Christine

Chu Ying

Fu Shun

Nicole Teh

Chun Hsien

Balloon

and the rest

我不想然你们为我一担心

不想然你们为我一操心

我知道你们我做的一切都是想让我心里好过

很多时面上的笑容还是要勉强的笑出来

我很对不起你们

应为我无法面对

心很疼，心很痛

一个人时，眼泪流得不停

鼻水也流着不停

对不起！

我真的无法无能

我很想坚强起来

但是很难

我以为我能的

我真的以为我能

但是默默在心里

还是很脆弱

我很不想面对

但是也不能不面对

我是真真的傻与笨小孩

然你们失望了

专一是我的优点

也是我的弱点

放宽心情, 面对生活

Exported directly from 

http://yingzifly.blogspot.com/2010/06/blog-post.html

Thanks you for writing this for me but thing isn't easy

傻孩子，到现在还放不下对方吗？
傻孩子，到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗？
傻孩子，有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下。
傻孩子，我来给你做个试验：
你拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？
知道我想说什么了吗？
这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。

傻孩子，
忘了吧，所有你留恋的，你回忆的，你拥有过的。
那些，都已是记忆。
缺失并不可怕，
可怕的，是无法面对。

傻孩子，
你无法轻易忘记放弃，是因为你付出过。
付出了，她就会像柱子一样扎根在心。
不要刻意去逃避，刻意忘记，那只会让你更痛苦。
绕开这个柱子，寻找未来的幸福生活吧。
那里，有你的理想。

傻孩子，
开始新的习惯吧。习惯，每天一个人生活。
习惯，一个人过生日、一个人行走。
习惯，走过熟悉的路，面对熟悉的景。
你逃不掉，逃不掉的。
那么，就勇敢面对，现实。
现实是，一切，画上了句点。

傻孩子，
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧，
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己，
这也是你，成长中的你。
这个你，正在逐渐死去。
新的你，即将重生。寻你的路，你的未来。
你知道的，所有的浩劫，都是成长的祭奠。
做最好的自己，即使，一个人。

傻孩子，
好好，尽情发泄吧。
剥开自己的心，用文字、用声音、用所有能发泄的方式。
泄完了，就要振作。
看吧，你失去的，其实微不足道。
还有那么多人关心着你，以不同的方式，
所以，你并不孤独。
正是这样的失去，让你看清现在所拥有的幸福。

傻孩子，别哭，别再哭，
不值得，真的，不值得了。
把过去尘封吧，别委屈，别不甘心，别不接受。
开始新的旅程吧，去遇见新的风景，新的际遇。
做你该做的事吧，有很多事，等待着你完成呢。

傻孩子，
生活褪去了曾有的颜色，暂时宁静。
别沉沦在这片宁静里，那会毁掉你。
你要明白，虽然残忍，但这个决定，足够正确。
现在的生活，不是你想要的。
为了你的理想，你必须学会适时放弃。
给对方最好的关怀，就是，变的更好、更强大、更幸福。

现在我对你很好、很好很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我，你就会明白了。

所以，当你不想和别人去交往的时候，要对对方好一点，不要让最后的结局成为一个恨字。
即使你不喜欢对方，也不要拒绝对方的一切，因为你没有权利去把对方伤的遍体鳞伤。
不要去拿你不喜欢对方来说话，即使你不喜欢，也别去做伤害对方的行为，要知道，伤害也许会到心里面。
好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。

送给还在坚持的人们
有时候放手了
可能你就轻松一些了
记得要让自己高兴

我一生中放不了的东西

在我一生中最放不下的人和东四还是你和你的东西

他们一直陪在我身边，代表了你的存在。

我说我能把你放开但是我知道，在我深深的心里

你依然是存在。

我不能停着想起你。

你的拥抱，你的吻，你的味道，你的微笑

永远都会留在我心里。

因为到了最后，我最爱的人依然是你。

你我说过，然你爱的人幸福才叫做爱

说的蛮简单，但是做得时是很痛苦

我放开你是应为你说

那么样才能然你找回你自己

我能把你人放开但是我不能把我对你的爱放开

应为，我依然是很很很很很爱你

希望你能开心就好了

如果你要看见

如果你知道

如果你没忘

我的心还是属于你的

永远都会是你的

就然我一个人

受苦

等待

希望

我们的爱情的破碎

的结合

我会专心把我的力量放在

学业

工作

家人

也会一直等待你的回来到我身边

我不会放弃我们的爱情

应为是我一生人对你的承诺

每个人说 “为么要为了一棵树放弃整个森林”

但是给我来说

某某在一个那么庞大的森林里，

有哪一棵树能然我一直爱住呢？

我不想很不想把你放开

但是我没办法把你留住

我唯一的骄傲就是我们的五年来的感情

过了数多波折，依然还是在一起

我就不相信老天爷

不会爱护一个有心人的等待

你放弃了我

我也不会放弃你

虽然爱情没可能能一人保住

但是只有等待希望的明天

总有一天，你会回到我身边

就当是我笨，笨到没人有

我也想笨下去

还是傻下去

我也不会放弃

嘴说放弃

眼说放弃

但是在深深的心里的角落

依然是在等待希望的明天

应为我不想没了你！！

New Starting Point of my Life

After been struggling to hold on to you for several days,

I finally learn to let go

My mom told me that


"God is very smart in planning
probably u were too timid and control by her all this while
so let u hv a small rejection so u will stand stronger for future
she doesnt value ur heart
then make her regret she hurt you and rejecte your love
let ur future wife has the best love she can ever get
Make urself success in life and career
make ppl surrounding u admire you and cherish you

If she so inconsiderate to give you so much burden while you are already alone in oversea
that only show how much she doesn't love you
If a girl that love you, not only will support you yet wouldn't give you so much thing to trouble

I know you are sad, cry it all loud, talk to a friend, talk a walk to Gold Coast theme park or walk around Brisbane City. Don't do any work for the meantime. Take a break and move on"

After hearing this from my mom (which is also her birthday today),

I walked out to the balcony to sit

I cried out loud, shedding a lot of tears

The sky suddenly rain

The sound hidden my voice of sorrow

The rain droplets accompany my tears
It's a blessing from GOD

Is a scenery he wanted me to see that i have to stand strong and let past be past

Rain continues as i shed my tear.

Then slowly my heart isn't pain anymore
I don't feel a thing
as if the wind blows away all the unwanted feeling i had

Finally i was able to buckled up myself
Just like i wrap up the tissue that wipe off my tears
and threw it off to indicate a new beginning of my life

My sacrifices for this love just flow away with the tears
Eye will never lies
Neither my mouth will
Because i live with honesty and dignity that i never do anything wrong this relationship

Only you love your friends and yourself more then you love me!

You shouldn't deserve me since 4 years ago!!

 I shall never shed another drop of tears for you, it because tears have been repeatedly dropping beneath my heart ever since you neglected me for your friends

You ought to said was my wrong
neither i will argue with that

But the truth only GOD will know
GOD will know what you did to me

If there's GOD in this world,
He will know what he plan and he knew what you did

This envelopes you gave me when i left Malaysia,

If you ever remember what you wrote in the photos

This envelope will be sealed forever like my love for you

I never doubt my loyalty to you

My love for you was true

The only heart been changing was YOURS!

You should knew you lied to me about all of it!

You never kept your word and promises to me

I will never regret what i did today

Great Friends in My Life (UCSI)

In my life, indeed i know quite a number of friends
From bypass friend to Great friends

Today it just suddenly came into my nerve that i would like to tell some of you how great are you guys in my life! Without any of you, I'm not what i am today.

I would not have such a memorable and exciting life in UCSI!
Never doubt that, I might or might not be successful in my life but im very sure that without any single of you, I would not live up to my life like now!!

Friends to me used to be a very simple term

Friend - people that you used them for my own benefits and vice versta

but from the very moments i know u guys, It doesn't meant that at all
I can see pure heart of sharing and appreciation among you guys

I been through a lot of great moment and times with you guys no matter how close to how long to how short
Every single moment was a GREAT! 


Let's start one by one
I was planning to draw a family tree but kinda hard ><"

Among the closest friends,
I would really call Brother and Sisters would be
1) Nikolai Wong Fu Shun
2) David Chung Tze Yang
3) Christine Chua Wen Yee
4) Cyrus Akbari
5) Mandeepal Singh
6) Fong Ching Hong
7) Khong Mei Li
8) Soh Wai Tuck
9) Akindayo Ak-Banks

P.S : Don't matter the order guys! No matter how i put it there's still an descending order ><"

There's are other good friends too besides this brothers and sister
1) Nyo Chu Ying
2) Lee Chun Hsien
3) Tan Aik Sheng
4) Beh Joh Sheng
5) Looi Han Jo
6) Bobby Ping
7) Tan Cheng Kiat
8) Steve Lau
9) Tan Chon Peng
10) Nicole Yee Kar Yen
11) Dwayne Hee
And there are many many more especially EVERYONE in UCSI's April 2009 Bsc Applied Sciences!!





Well below are some of the great times we are together

Toward my life ahead of these year, all of you have been by my side.

even though time together wasn't long but the moments together was memorable

Time flies, people surrounding me always changing but there's always some of those people

have not change.

Those are Great Friends!!

Whenever there's time I need someone to listen to me and my thought and feeling be heard

You guys Never failed to be that person. Even how harsh things went through, we tend to hold each others together walk through it..

I know I'm such a perfectionist person that wish most of the things goes by my way my thought my direction

I may not be a very perfect friend but there's time i really care and take into consideration for you.

No matter how things happen between us, i will never give up this friendship

I would try to give you the best solution (which i presume)

Whether it work out for you or myself, 

I felt each of you went through it perfectly the way i wanted

Tracking back time, Things was much more easier having every one of you there!

Whenever i face trouble, you guys will be always the first one to lend me a hand or shoulder for me to shed my tear and sorrow.

No matter how i camourflage myself, you guys will never failed to see through it.

Life here wasnt really easy without you guys

You are all my best partner and friends

No matter how have u contribute in my growing process

You will always have a place in my heart and mind

The smile in your face, and my face

The sorrow in yours and mine

The happiness we shared

The successes where accomplished

The time we spent together

The every little things we did for each others

The ups and downs we went through

Every moments didn't comes easy like a snap of finger

We each contributed for all these little things

Great things happened when we combined every single little things

There's time we would thinking of giving up on each others but at the end we never able to do so

Because we know without you or me, there's never WE

We are always ONE!!

Everyone of you just as important to me as my everything

You are part of my life

Without you, There's Never Me~

It's not easy to find friends like you

and it might be easy to lost a friend like you,

if i don appreciate you well

I hope to let every one of you know that

I really Appreciate every one of you deep in my heart

Whether are we still close or distant or even never talked ever since some incident

You guys still have your part in my heart

I really hope we could get back together like Old times

when everyone able to sit around and having our talks and meetings

whether would it be official stuff, or personal matter

I felt I have no appreciated the time i had with you till i really apart from you

I have never had much pictures with you

So please,

Please promise me, I wanna have more solid memories of you

Let's get together again and take some good great and fun pictures together

I wanna show everyone that in my life

I have Great Peoples like you guys that always by my side

Im Very Proud having you in my life

I'm proud of myself that i really care for you even now

Frankly telling you guys

I miss you deeply in my heart

whenever I'm Lonely and Alone, i tends to hope everyone of you will be my side

P.S : When writing this blog, I cried all the way through it, because i really miss you guys very much!!

I Miss The great time together

I miss the laughter we had together

I miss the craziness we did

I miss every SINGLE things we have together!!

Please Promise Me, that we will always be together till one day you feel I'm not worth you to be called as Friend!

The Virgo-an Birthday 18.09.11

This year birthday wasnt as fun and exciting as one year ago
Looking back pictures from last years
Things was great, friends are a lot
Simple yet fun
Here are some of them

They are all the GREAT people i know from UCSI! Thought not everyone were there but the closest one is always there for me!

Seriously

I miss you guys like crazy!

Been thinking back the old time when everyone were together enjoying life like there's never tomorrow

It was really great!

Now everyone is in different part of the world

Bonding are getting loosen

One of my birthday wishes is

Back in time where you guys were there with me!

Everyone there were a very important part of my journey in life!

You guys meant alot to me no matter how are we now.

I definately will come back to find u every single of you!!

Back to my birthday celebration back in Brisbane!

The morning i woke up, my blackberry i flooded with lots of comment and notification from FB
Just over the hours
I had another 30 comments when i woke up

Well, the first thing i been doing on my birthday
Is replying all the wishes i got from Facebook from everyone of you
I would like to again

Thanks you to whom that sent me wishes and those that remembered my big day right in the heart!!




One thing i left out
This morning i woke up, feeling very dizzy and head is feeling heavy indeed
Balloon and Nicole was preparing brunch
It's was fried noodle

While im having the meal i feel unease and feeling drowsy all the way
Wasnt really a very good condition for a celebration

On the first few hours of my day,
I took medication of panadol (Active Fast)

My good housemate (Chun Hsien, Nicole and Balloon), they are planning for an outing in South Bank for dinner and movie! We invited Dwayne to tag along as well

Let me show u what we did that day

We travelled to South Bank by Moggil Bus 444.

We went to check out for movie showtime
at South Bank Cinema Times

Cinema Ticketing Counter

Each movie ticket cost $5.50 on student card

And we decided to watch Johnny English by Rowan Atkinson a.k.a Mr Bean

We brought the movie ticket for 7.30pm

Movie Tickets (without seat number)

It's how the cinema here does, there isnt any seat number unlike in Malaysia

and if you are late to the cinema even if you purchase your ticket very early, u still get some lousy seating 

haha

Beverage Machine

If you are a Malaysian, Im sure you heard bout 7-11 Slurpee, this is something like that

just that it have different varieties of flavour and colour as you could see, a lot of people buying this drink and some even took their time to make layers of colour and on the side it some candy shelf 

Food Counter (Popcorn)

After getting the movie ticket, We went looking for our Dinner

and it's just beside the cinema, there this restaurant name Ginga (Japanese Cuisine)

Ginga Menu

The main reason that attracted Balloon and Chun Hsien to entered this restaurant is because of these :

Detective Conan Movie!! LOL!

Initially i was craving for some steak for birthday but Japanese cuisine would do as well

However, in the Menu i found this korean dish , Salmon Bimbimbap

and i ordered it as my birthday dinner meal. Isnt it looking pretty brilliant? 

It actually taste awesome as well

 Salmon Bimbimbap

And right in front of our table there this bar counter which look pretty nice

 Ginga Bar Counter

 Our Family Photo! Everyone had their dinner and had some pretty great talk too

Partly of the time they were talking bout the movie, Detective Conan! LOL!

Great family i had here!

After the dinner we went for the movie, We went there at 7pm, and there's alot of people already in the Q waiting for the movie to start, waited till 7.30 finally we can get in

and i bought some popcorn and drink to share with them as well

The popcorn here is coated with caramel. rather is coated with some cheese powder and salt

therefore, it is salty rather then sweet :D but taste nice as well :p

This how the cinema look like, 

To me it seem to be like a theatre hall, huge actually

but crampy seating ><"

 Cinema Screen

After that, we just back home back to our usual life, and im busy replying comments

and i have a total of 250comments! That's a lot to reply but is all the great wishes from everyone

Fantastic! 

and On 19th September Night,

My seniors, Sin Ying, Jerry, Wei Lin

they made me this birthday muffin cake for my birthday!

They are really awesome people that i know!

Thanks you very much!

It's pretty much my birthday cake for this year

Simple yet delicious!

Every little things that everyone did on my big day, i remember it right in my heart! Thanks you everyone!

Thanks alot!

Each of everyone of you made my day as great as it should with great people like you!